The 23 1/2 years I have just completed as my parents’ live-in caregiver were a gift of time to them and to the Lord. Some people who have been watching me, seem to have coloured me with the kind of subtle disdain they have for a lowly milk-maid. They do not realize that I’ve been a home manager, and that caregiving calls for all kinds of nursing and diplomacy skills. Nor do they know about all the hours I’ve spent improving my mind, and teaching myself business and office skills, and even more, web-design and marketing skills too.
Without positive feedback, even I can begin to think of myself as less capable than I really am. So first I’ve had to struggle with defining what my true needs and next steps will be.
Fortunately, I’ve been a dreamer for years, and often visualize whole business scenarios as vividly as if I’d invented a new world empire for a novel. I do have an outline for what I want to do.
A. Move to a small wee house in the city and settle in.
- continue my current business schedule from my office/living room.
B. Start short weekend courses in computers to earn immediate cash
C. Develop my 4 month internship courses
- get financial help from city program
- train some tutors to teach small clusters of 4 students/interns
D. Once they function smoothly, back off to start new companies, or write books.
I believe that since the Lord called me to this caregiver role, without pay besides the lowly room and food, so He will also provide me with my next home, and it will be suitable and agreeable to me. The problem seems to arise when others don’t think I’m capable of owning a home, and they think it’s foolish to expect God to provide me $48,000 for it when I have nothing saved for it.
Through various conversations, and much prayer and thought, it is becoming clearer to me, that we are not all speaking the same language. I have a vision of what is to come, and I have a faith that the same Lord, who has answered countless prayers for me in the past will deal with this need too.
But these friends to whom I refer, only see me as a naive and foolish woman who doesn’t know what she’s getting into. They want to steer me to safer waters.
“Go apply for low income housing, and social assistance.”
“You can’t handle the expenses of a house!”
” Run a business? Just get a job - here’s one for 3 days a week.”
It’s time to lift my head and say, “Excuse me! I’ve already seen God act on my behalf with little smaller miracles pointing to the larger one;
1. It was friends who told me of the little house unlisted, right next to them, going for sale.
2. The owner said he was willing to wait for me to get the funds to buy it at $48,000.
3. There are NONE available any more at anything under $90,000!
4. I checked out Social Assistance, and I qualify for transitional help, including rent, utilities, phone, groceries and medical coverage.
5. The man I respect and wanted to come see it with me, has agreed to do so on Monday.
6. I believe the owner will agree to a temporary rent-to-own deal until my inheritance comes through.
7. The asking price of Dad’s house is going up as it is listed, so my inheritance will be larger!
8. A mission with whom I’ve been volunteering for years is planning to make me a part-time missionary and possibly set up a designated House Fund. This means people can give me gifts and be officially receipted.
9. The timing of these things day by day is impressive.
10. I find my heart brimming with a joy and confidence that it will all work out. Especially when I find passages such as this in my morning’s Bible reading;
“May those who delight in my vindication shout for joy and gladness; may they always say, “The LORD be exalted, who delights in the well-being of his servant.”
(Psalm 35:27 NIV)
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