Tuesday morning, I opened KWord and pulled up some files on a floppy disk from my old 286 computer downstairs (where I do my devotions). The first one I had converted to RTF and it opened okay, but when I opened the second one, KWord “hung up” or greyed out, and I couldn’t close it or do anything with it. In Windows-lingo, it crashed.
I spent from about 9:30 to 11:30 searching online for how to deal with this. I knew that in a Linux operating system one should NOT shut down and reboot to solve a crash. That’s a Windows’ cure. But I got impatient and decided to shut down and reboot.
Only now I couldn’t get into Mandrake. All seized up! I re-installed my Mandrake suite, but on the empty half of the 40GB drive. When I came back in, I found my cursor missing. I struggled to fix it, but couldn’t get into that area of Mandrake Control, as I couldn’t see where the mouse was clicking.
In the afternoon (sigh!) I re-installed Mandrake again. Still the same problem. I explored the SuSE LIVE! CD (it stays on the CD, not the hard drive), and via SuSE was able to see that my partitions were still all there, so I went to look for answers on the net, with my older computer, using dial-up. I couldn’t find anything really helpful, so in the evening I came back and installed Mandrake again for the 3rd time.
While in the custom partitioning stage I decided to risk a Rescue partition click. My sister-in-law Penny called, and I was talking to her when it stopped and I saw my hard drive wiped clean!
As I moaned and grieved she comforted me by saying it was all just “stuff.” People matter more than our stuff.
I know all that!
What she didn’t know was how many web sites I’ve been working on, how many writing projects, graphics… and not all for just me - clients too.
I still have stuff on the 10 GB drive with Windows, but it’s been locked off to me since Easter. What I’ve lost now, is all the stuff I’d gathered and set up since Easter. I had not been able to figure out how to do backups to CDs, but had been saving everything to a separate partition on this drive. If I had NOT tried that “Rescue Partition” button I would still have it. (SIGH!)
I finished that third install. (I am getting VERY familiar with that routine), and late that night I hunted up manuals and instructions on backups. I was resolved not to do anything else until I had learned how to do backups on CDs. Close to midnight I went to bed, feeling odd. Like I ought to be physically sick. My heart was certainly in mourning.
All day yesterday and most of today I have sought out and managed to learn a steep mountain of information. I can now do backups on a program sitting right here in this suite of over 900 programs. It’s called X-CD-Roast. I also learned a number of commands to use in the Konsole like a real Geek.
I still need to learn more about changing file permissions, but I think it is safe now to try to re-build my “stuff” on this computer. Remembering my move to this computer in November, and my transition into Mandrake only after Easter I realize that it will take a few weeks. All my big blogging plans are on hold.
I’ll be able to download my sites and the ones I look after, so I’ll have copies of them again, but the work I had not uploaded yet… well, I’ll have to do it over.
Same with the kids’ book I’d started on the weekend, and the article I wrote Saturday night for the local weekly paper’s centennial project. A big batch of graphics I had cropped and re-sized, I’ll need to do over. About 80+ tracts that I had scanned for a shopping cart - need to be done over. Never mind all my email addresses.
(Sigh!) Yes, I have been in tears over this. Nevertheless, this morning I saw and claimed a Bible verse and it cheering me up more and more as I re-read it throughout the day today. Let me share it with you in case you need this lovely comfort too.
“The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” (Zephaniah 3:17 NIV).
Can you put aside your pain too, and focus on God delighting and singing over you?
Blessings & Thanks for Reading,
Ruth